Thank you, Jen for your support -- I do appreciate it. (Also, I'm hope that all is well with the folks in Colorado -- so very sad and pitiful isn't it -- all around ugly). I'll keep everyone in my thoughts and prayers.
For BTI-- I know for a fact that the above post has nothing to do with you and I hope you know that although I don't participate here on this particular thread all that much, it had been my intention to become more active just so I could learn more about you and other "newer" (although no one is really very "new"

here). I honestly now think that based on the very few times that I've been here, and the reistance that I have felt -- not from you -- that I probably should just continue to read here and not write here. I'm especially sorry for the manner in which this thread went spriraling downward and I can only apologize for any part I played in it. Contrary to what anyone thinks or writes here, I do not come here looking for arguments; however, I do have discussions and defend myself if necessary, but even with the worst of threads, in the beginning I might get caught up in them, but I soon leave (knowing that it'll die down and there will be another time when it happens again). There have been no arguments here on the moon at all recently that I can see, but I cannot change another person's opinions -- it is what it is.
Last night it was very late when I read the rant from Karen and it was extremely upsetting -- not because it was someone shouting, yelling, publicly trying to humiliate me -- that's happened here before, off and on again since the beginning -- not with just me as recipient and certainly not with me as the offender. I can handle the mean, rude remarks of many and it's okay because they mean nothing to me -- neither the person nor the words, but Karen's struck me to the core on the very place that she knows and everyone else here knows is my favorite place to come to learn about PG. Not only were her words hurtful (anyone who can read would be able to clearly understand that) to me, but they were low blows, below the belt statements, accusing me of betraying her (which I still have not figured out what she means) and then used mean, spiteful, hateful statements toward me -- considering me as one of the only two people with whom she doesn't exchange any words with. Because Karen was a trusted friend, everything she said had much more meaning to me (in the most hurtful manner) and for her to have placed it here on the moon -- the place I love so well -- is just downright low.
Last night, I gave a response based on how I immediately felt. There is soooo much more that I would and could write about, but I do not really want to go there. What was so hurtful to me last night, has already gone. I went back to facebook to send Karen a message and found that she had timed all of this so perfectly -- she knew I was online (and at that time I was still her "friend"), she posted her statement here and after I had read it, I went back to facebook and she had de-friended me and blocked me from sending her any messages. Although I do think my last message that I sent her got through before she finalized it all -- I simply wrote that I never knew she felt so much hatred and anger towards me -- and that is the honest truth folks. [The absolute only reason I post this here is because I have no other way to respond and I think that at the very least, I have every single right to stand up against such a rant and rave.]
I have read and re-read Karen's shout out to me several times -- trying to decipher it so it makes some sense. From what I can tell, there are no arguments going on here at the moment, so I'm not sure what that's about, but the more confusing part is that I betrayed her in some way, shape or form. I, for the life of me, cannot figure it out. So, I went to facebook (which is the only place where there has been any (very ittle) communication to see if I had "missed" something somewhere along the line. The last month's communications have been nothing but argumentative with me (almost like the post here, but not nearly as bad -- I think the audience always helps the show go over much better). So, just for the record, to satisfy anyone's curiosity -- I haven't a clue as to why Karen is so very upset with me to the point of being mean, spiteful and hateful toward me. If there is anyone out there who might have a clue, then perhaps you could fill me in, but honestly, there's no need to -- it's all done here now (even though I'm breaking Karen's golden rule -- she must always have the last word, even if they're mean, spiteful words). Unfortunately, I've never taken kindly to anyone dictating to me how to behave and I just tend to want to defend myself and my character.
But all in all, as much as I have no idea what went wrong or where (because according to Karen, it's apparently been for a long time -- very confusing to think that I have been being used for the past few months/year?), there are some very important points that I want to make before I've put this to bed.
1) Karen, you mention old history (LUNA page -- really?) when you know that it is exactly that -- history. As you said, I publicly said what I thought about it because there was a time when it was exactly that -- however, a few of us had resolved any problems or misconceptions and I joined the group -- so sorry that you can't seem to understand that some things do move on and get resolved.
2) It's confusing to me what you mean about the next word game???? I participate in the game periodically -- and yes I've mentioned it in discussions with others when giving them a suggestion -- I am not the person who has a problem with that thread -- why would I participate in it at all? I do notice that you don't participate in it -- and that's cool, your prerogative, but don't assume I like or don't like the same exact things as you.
3) Karen, for you to make statements that you outright know will be mean and spiteful and hurtful is inexcusable to me -- absolutely inexcusable. You obviously have a lot of anger -- and if it's meant for me, then I better at least know that I'm worthy of it -- I have done nothing at all for you to treat me the way you have (I'm not saying this in a pitiful, sorry voice, just so you know -- I'm stating a fact to you -- no one has the right or privilege to treat anyone as a lesser person -- and that is what you have attempted to do with me -- publicly.). I am extremely sorry that you felt it necessary to do this to me or anyone, for that matter -- but mostly to me. I.do.not.give.you.permission.to.treat.me.this.way. Hope that's clear enough for you.
4) Your warning to me about NY (and how you will not speak to me) is appreciated, but please do not think that I will not still enjoy myself at the show -- afterall, I'm there to see PG first and foremost -- anything after that is secondary. If I choose to join in with other lunatics and you are there, I do not have a problem with it -- you own what you own and I own what I own. I do not have any hard feelings toward you at all -- and nothing you can shout, scream, yell at me can change that. It's just the way it is.
5) The statement in which you compared me to another person with whom you loathe, despise, ignore is just another example of how mean, spiteful and hateful you are toward me. It's below the belt and you know that it is -- what a shame that you feel so insecure in yourself that you needed to try to look "larger than life" by trying to put me down -- as you can see, I'm still standing. Sorry to disappoint you.
6) Lastly, the very worst thing that you could have done (and planned to do with full intentions of causing me grief) is to have publicly screamed and shouted and ranted and raved at me on here -- the moon. You absolutely know full well that this is my sacred place -- the place I love to come to and have always been. So, now it's my turn to use a phrase you seem to love so well -- it's a bit condescending for me, but I really do feel it's appropriate here -- How dare you attack me here!!!!!!!!! How dare you assume that you can come here and cause me such grief -- in the place I care for the most!!!!! How dare you even ever have called yourself my friend -- you have struck below the belt more than once with your rant and rave but to have done it all on this place, knowing how much it means to me -- I'm so very sorry that you even had to know me for the limited time you did -- you obviously did not ever know me at all and I unfortunately and sadly never knew you at all. What a shame. What a damn, crying shame!
For Jen -- thanks once again for abiding by my wishes for no one to comment or get involved -- this whole thing was unnecessary and confusing -- but eye-opening at the same time -- so, I guess every cloud has a silver lining. Yesterday, I also was sad that Karen's and my friendship came to an end in such a way, but today, I'm just sad that it was never a friendship at all -- just a false alarm -- I really must learn from this, I'm sure.
Well, I'm all done and sorry for the public display but it certainly isn't the whole picture (even now) and was definitely not my choice. Life is so very fragile, indeed, and it's true that we don't always know what's going on in a person's mind/life.
I wish you well Karen and hope that your release of anger and hatred helps you in some way -- at least it'll have been worth it all in the end. Meanwhile, have a great rest of the summer, enjoy the fall and whatever shows you get to see (not just PG) and have a great life overall.
Kind regards to all,
Pat Parker